Thursday, July 8, 2004
Are you there???
Sometimes i wish your heart is here with me
After so many ups and downs we had went thru in the past 1 year.We seems to drift apart each day, i no longer see you walking next to me. Sometimes i am really wandering why there's a sudden change in you? What makes you have a changed of heart for someone else?Why do you always has to deny me as your girlfriend?Why?Why?Why? Do you know all this questions keep popping up in my mind? I feel so lousy!
Remember the things i wrote in friendster???
Sometimes I hate myself for loving you...
We had a wonderful beginning, why a sudden change in you? Love to me was a wonderful thing when I met you and have you in my life. Somehow, this love didn’t stay in you therefore you choose to leave and go seeking for new Love. Somewhere out there someone will be waiting for you to come.
Hey...wake up from your bloody idea! He is not worth you putting in hell lots of effort in to that idiotic relationship. Making fool out of yourself as well as the hell lots of nonsense he is giving you girl. Go through all sort of predictable heartache.
C’mon you are a grown up now. LEARN to be independent girl. Is he that good that you have to hurt yourself over and over again??? TWO-TIMING is OUT man. Boy you must have gone and bumped your head, because you left her number on your phone. Tell me why you are looking so accused, when I am the one who didn't know the truth. Hey... and
I have to tolerate all this stuffs???!!! WHY Can’t you be in my shoe for just a sec and have a feel of what my heart has gone thru for the past one year...I envy ppl around me with their relationship being so sweet and stable...Boyfriend being faithful to the relationship. Why can’t it be mine???
Is there a way to force a kiss, but have no consequences... is there a type of happiness that would feel familiar, but not one that I’d miss and could easily let it go..... Would there be a relationship that's so easy to forget just as a song that you have listened before? We have hoped to face our unknown disparity ahead of us, and eventually we'd be able to face our disappointments as always.
Moreover you are in army, Damn it...still has the heart to go looking for other girls?! Are you NUTS or what? Don't take me for granted that I’ll be there for you whenever you want me to...Don't tell me how important I am to you because IT'S ALL BULLSHIT. You knew it. Sickening man. Get out from my life! Don't mark any heartache in my heart anymore. I gave up everything I had on something that wouldn't last,
But I refuse to cry...Sometimes I HATE myself for LOVING you.
So what are you going to do man? Now that you here with me... you’ve got to show me, Because nothing comes for Free! Start From the bottom & Work your way up slowly.To earn my trust.
well...well...i do hope that things will really turn out better for me, as well as this relationship.I guess that's all i can hope for right now.Be it for good or what, i'm gonna pull thru this shit.
10:51:00 PM
